Bz Mommy

It’s been long…

Yes yes, I am back.  Finally settled a-lot of things and we are more used to our lifestyle now.  And yes, the fact that I can write now means that I have shifted my laptop over!

Will be posting more updates soon!

In conjunction with the Singapore Family Pledge Movement, Nuffnang is going to give away a total of 700 tickets to various attractions in Singapore!

I pledge to spend more quality time with my little one, my faithful soul mate, my dear family members and his dear family members.

NATIONAL FAMILY CELEBRATIONS 2010 (NFC 2010)

Organised by the National Family Council, National Family Celebrations is an annual event which celebrates and reinforces the importance of families and family life. This year, Singaporeans are encouraged to make a personal commitment to their families by being a part of the Singapore Family Pledge Movement.

To provide opportunities for Singaporeans to follow through on the pledges to their families, there are a myriad of activities under the NFC 2010 calendar – which will interest the young, the old, and everyone in between! NFC 2010 will be held from 25 May to 26 June 2010, and this year marks the 25^th Anniversary of the Celebrations. For more information on NFC 2010, visit www.nfc.sg

My lappy decided to fail on me..

and thus u see that it had been a long time since I last wrote…

Am writing from my previous faithful lappy…

But the photos are all in the silly laptop that failed…

This song was a reinforcement of what I had felt and had penned my status on Facebook.

曲：李正帆 词：姚若龙
编辑：haoxuan

黄昏过后 暖暖的晚风中

在小公园里头

眼眶红了

看老公公和老婆婆在散步着

把手牢牢握着

星星亮了 我觉得幸福就是这样的

几十年后 你也变老公公 我当你的拐杖

扶着你走 眼睛花了

你老花眼镜就是我

把时间忘了 慢慢走

美丽风景 我为你转播不让你错过

能和你牵手 我是幸福的

你就像温柔又顽固的石头

用心盖了座 最美的城堡叫永久 圈住我

不管过再久也会幸福的

我们都走过了动摇的时候

爱已变成树 就算是有风会平息的

被懂我的人爱着 我是幸福的

连沉默都能是交流

你总是能给我比我想的还要多

我爱你 不做你的公主 要做你的快乐

Yap, I am a breakfast person.  I need them or I will go dizzy by 10am.. Plus, it makes me feel good to start the day with a good breakfast!

Dear bought me to this Boulangerie Cafe at Tanglin Mall during one of our leave day.  They serve good and affordable breakfast set.  And of ‘cos good coffee!

Look at the swirl on my coffee! I tried to draw a heart but failed. LOL!

My breakfast set and the closed up..

And Dear’s.. The eggs are in heart-shaped! They got our choice of eggs mixed up..I ordered the sunny side up and he ordered the scambled eggs. Hmm..Maybe the lady who took our orders wanted to present the love eggs to dear?

Looks delicious right? And it really started our morning in a great way!

Like some other mums, I sometimes do think that I had sort of deprived my girl from the childhood joy that she should have. Things like building sandcastles, running around with only a panty on, swimming every weekend, etc.  Well, most of the time I do blame it to the fact that I do not have a car, and yes, I can take all the barangs and take a bus from the west to east, but the thought of it alone tires me.

And of ‘cos the terrible weather here put my ideas off many times.. :p

Thanks to the very good Uncle Patrick and Ah Yee Kat, Dawn had a chance to try on flying kite, on a very hot Saturday.

The 2 men at work while my sis and I standing around to take photos.  Dawn was excited with the 2 big kites!

Daddy at work..The best experience out of all 4 of us, had one and only kite flying experience

Trying to get the kites up..up a little..

And it dropped again..

And it’s up again!

Weeeeeeeeeee……

Happy  that it’s finally up..

“Uncle Patrick, Papa’s kit fly up liao leh”…

Man at work..very handsome hor?

I think this is a nice photo..except that my sis was frowning. :p

The kite is so big that it covers the whole of Dawn.

And she got entangled by the kite thread.

Still good to be protected by papa with the kite flying up..

I love this shot too…

Look! It’s our kites!

Can you see our kites?

A long post and it contains some pictures which can be offensive to some.  Don’t say I never warn you

It is not by purpose for a week of absence from blog, but rather an incapability to pen my thoughts down.  I had temporary became rather handicapped on my right hand because I had an operation.

I had discovered 1 lump near my right hand ring finger and soon there were 2.  Even though they do not cause any pain even when pressed, I was still very concern with the extra growth. I went to my regular GP and he told me there’s nothing to worry about because it’s most likely water cyst and that even after removed, they will still grow back.

So I left them be.

And then they grew – to quite a noticable size. Can you see them from this photo? This was taken a few days before my operation. If you can’t see them, then try comparing to your palm.

And so I went to Dear’s regular GP and he suggested that I take them out.  It was planned to take them out in his clinic but when I returned to him 3 weeks after for the minor surgery, the GP said that it had grew and it was more dangerous to extract in clinic and I should be referred to Specialist immediately.

I was referred to SGH and my operation was fixed 2 weeks after, which was the next operation available as the surgeon only operates on Fridays and the next 2 weeks were public holidays.

It was a horrifying experience to me.  My hand had to be placed in an awarkard position and the stupid needle was painful to my thin skin on my palm. I can literally feel the cutting pain initially and I have to keep saying PAIN PAIN PAIN to make the surgeons inject more anesthetic.

After about 5 minutes (I was facing the clock and was staring at it throughout the ordeal), I heard the surgeon asked his nurse to request for a camera.  And the next moment, he said,

“Hazel, I have a good news and a bad news for you, which one do you want to hear first?”

I was nervous. And I mumbled “Just say”.

The surgeon told me that the lumps are actually tumour and not ganglion as what was initally diagnosed.  However, the good news was the tumours are benign.  The bad news was, they are nerve tumours and that some nerves had to be removed together with the tumours (which means it will affect my touch senses in future).

What happened next are all in a dazed.  I was worried, scared, curious, nervous and all different sorts of feelings seem to just dwell on me.

Oh ya, there are 3 tumours instead of 2 and they line in a straight line on my nerve.  They look like macadamia nuts!

And I left the operating theatre with a big bandage..

Side view :

I looked as if I had just survived a cat fight.

My stiches healed well and I went back to SGH for review and changed my bandage.  I took a photo of my stitched wound while waiting for my turn to the surgeon’s room. Long and ugly scar

I am going to remove the stitches next week. I still feel the pain at the wound area and when doing some actions with my hands. I had lost sensation on one side of my ring finger but the surgeon said that it will recover slowly.  I doubt it will be for the next few years. But I am thankful that the tumours are not cancerous and I still have my life to keep.

This is my fifth operation since my birth.  The experience of each operation is just different..

First

I was only 5-6 years old then.  Wanted to play hide and seek with my sister who just came back from school and I ran to hide in the bedroom.  But instead of hiding, I ran and tripped and knocked my lips onto the sharp edge of the door and fountain of blood just shot out from the lips. I was crying, my mom was nervous, it was lunch time and a neighbour helped me to a cab and brought me to a clinic which operate during lunch. I was left with 3 stitches and a puffy lower lips.  I can’t recalled much on the whole event after being sent to the doctor but I remembered the cloth which the doctor covered my face when stitching me smell like some biscuit.  Maybe I was hungry.

Second

I was in Poly Year 1/2 and had an abscess at my armpit (yah, of all places -.-) I had to have some surgical intervention and my eldest sis had to rush down from work to admit me to NUH (I still need a guardian because I was not 21 yet!).  I was in pain ‘cos the swelling was really very bad. My family were still laughing at me till these day because of the tears that I shed in front of the doctors and nurses -.-

My family members were all with me.  But I was yielding for someone to visit me.  A heartless man who two-timed me and a good friend.  And of ‘cos he never turned up because he didn’t know I was admitted.

The day I was discharged, a guy friend called.  When I told him I was in hospital the day before, his long silence and response after was something which I had not expected.  A year later, he was my boyfriend for the next 2 years.

Third

Had to go for an operation (it’s pte and thus I am not going into details :p ) at the age of 25.  My mom accompanied me. Had to stay one night in the hospital as its GA operation. Thinking back, I was foolish for not realising that the man then was not the right person to get married with. He didn’t take leave from work (it was a sat) to accompany me for the operation.  He came in the afternoon but was playing with his game gadget half of the time.  And I had to keep reminding him to come early to fetch me the next morning.  The feeling was totally wrong…

Fouth

Ok, this might not be categorised as an operation but I was in a delivery ward.  Yes, it’s bringing Dawn to this earth. My second sister was with me. 15 hours of labour and the bastard was out drinking in a pub .

I can still remember Dawn’s look when she was being cleaned.  Her eyes, her expression, her emotion, they are all still very clear in my mind now.

Fifth

A horrifying experience because it’s local anesthetic.  Being awake while being cut is just an awful feeling.

The only thing which had made me brave and loved was the presence of him.  When I first stepped out of the operating theatre, he was already sitted there waiting for me.  I was in a dazed but his presence had reassured me. He took leave without me having to ask. And he stayed 2 nights with us so as to help me with Dawn.

I remembered I was very talkative after the operation and in the cab. And I know I was not behaving myself.  The talkativeness was just to hide my frightful experience in the theatre..I think he sensed it and just let me rattle on….

Thanks baby :*

Guess where I was @ Chistmas Eve?

I had a relaxing afternoon given by my dearest! He was secretive for many days, and even till the very day. And of ‘cos I was very cooperative, I didn’t insist him to tell me (but I did try to probe) Haha!

The massage was good and the experience of a massage in a couple’s room was something which I had wanted to try for very long.

Happy Christmas!!

The presents were placed neatly on my work desk when I returned to work after a day of leave…

…because we made it happen.

Fast as it can be, we had been together for 2 years.  Though cannot compare to my sister’s 12 years of marriage (which I envy leh! They are both still a sweet couple!), but we have both came a long way.

It wasn’t easy for any of us – me having to struggle with emotional baggages & burdens, plus all the worried thoughts that was resulted from the awful past experience; he having to do alot of explaining and convincing in the initial days, learning how to carry a baby and play like a kid, and rushed to send me home after a quick and short dinner because I have to be a Nine-derella.

I am not sure what’s in for us 50 years down the road, why him and why me, but I know there must be a reason for bringing us together.  Though we can have different perspective of things (and of 2 different extreme ends), I can’t help but notice that we can think of the same thing when we are physically at different places. Many a times, our smses met in the frequency realm because we both thought of each other and typed the SMS at the same time.

And so the relationship still smell so fresh everyday like breathing the morning dew, and the sweetness linger with the booster I need daily just like my coffee.

We are not able to meet on the actual day because he had class after work, and so we met 2 days later for a dinner.  The least expected, and the sweetest moment was, he walked towards me from his office building, with my favourite flower in his hands. Can’t stop smiling after that.

Big Sunflower ↓

We had a good dinner @ Thai Express Holland Village. The food is nice, service is good, and I still cannot forget the big meatball and the stuffed chicken. I had the fried Kway Tiao and he had his favourite Olive rice (with lots of chilli!).  I enjoyed the time of catching up and I think I talked alot that night…haha!

I still have many conversations that I want to hold.  I still want to travel around.  I want to share all the bits of my life.  All with him.  And of cos with Dawn.