Bz Mommy

Thanks for all the good people who walked with me in 2009. Thanks for all the good things that had decided to fall on me in 2009. Thanks for all the not-so-good people and things in 2009, you had made me tougher.

What comes into your mind when you see or hear this?

~ Very noisy leh! Stop disturbing my afternoon nap!

~ Dusty leh! Better close the windows or all the dust comes into my house!

~ Why everyday also dig de! Dig here liao then dig there, cannot stop de meh?

and the list goes on…the above speaks your mind?

Well…there must be reason for all the digging lah, incase you are wondering.  And bear this in mind, the people who are doing all the hard work under the hot sun, they didn’t like it either. But they have mouths to feed..

And one of the mouths was me…

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Yap, that’s my dad profession. I used profession because does your dad know how?  If it’s not something of a common knowledge or skill, then my dad is indeed skillful and professional enough.  Just like not everyone can be certified as an accountant, nor as a doctor or a lawyer, same goes to the one who operate that machine!

He’s my dad, and I am proud of him!

I had declared the things that I wanted to complete…long way back in Oct 2007.  If you don’t know what I am talking about, it probably mean you had missed that long-ago post.

And I finally did it in Aug 2009! 2 years leh! But that’s because I only get to go for lesson once a week or some of the weeks/months I could not go for any lessons at all!

It was tough.  Sacrificing my only sleep-in morning in the week, waking up the same time as the Mon-Fri, rushing back from the school to take care dawn, having to tahan the nags from the various instructor that my lessons once per week is not enough -.- etc

I probably end up not driving in my lifetime at all (like my mom), but well, it’s still something which I used to think that I can never get the licence.  It was a step for me and the promise which I had made to myself.

Though I didn’t get the licence in the 1st try (nor the 2nd! -.-), but I still can’t help but to tell myself, I made it!

Those creative mood…

Those bo liao mood…

Those notti modd…

:p

Something is missing.  But I don’t know what.

Maybe the fear that caused it.

Or maybe the stress.

Could be the time running out.

Maybe it just depleted.

I don’t know.  WHAT IS MISSING??

…. when this happens…

How to cross the road like that? By the time the bus manage to move off, the green man has changed to red man..

I have nothing to expect…. because I am already contented.  Life may not be in that expected perfection, but is it a life or is it a journey?

This journey had been tough so far, but it could be much tougher without you.

I know I had burdened you somehow someway for sure, but you had always told me I had not.

Certain words are so hard to be said, to really describe the real feelings and thoughts within.

Tears are warm and they meant something more than joy.

The sunny flowers made me look like a silly girl infront of the delivery man (who is also the florist boss and his personal friend! -.-), but who will not feel silly-ly loved with the sight of the big bouquet?

Knowing that these flowers cannot be kept for long, who will still bear to spend that kind of money? I knew he did it for me.

Thanks baby, for this surprise (yah, good job for sending it on Thursday instead of Friday), for this to keep me smiling in the midst of the stressful job, for this thought, for this love.

↑ ↓ sunny flowers! 1 to cheer the day, 3 to say he loves me, 12 to say be happy cos he loves me! :p

Weeks before, I had some cheap thrill while we had a lazy afternoon.  Trying to see how well we can cooperate to make the heart shape with our hands.

First try :

Not too bad for a 1st-timer la, out of shaped..and a fat heart

Try again :

Nice boh! quite nice liao la! hand almost got cramp can?! it’s hard to do that and taking the photo using the phone!

Cheap thrill can be nice once a while..doing silly things together can be very fun too

Barely 1 month to the new year…and I am feeling really tired.  How can that be?  Am I really that old?

So many things happened in the span of 3 weeks, I felt so breathless.  Almost every night, I reached home gasping for air while having my dinner.

It doesn’t help when my luck seems to be quite bad these few weeks.

It also doesn’t help when the kid was sick.

Dawn was rather sick after she went school for 5 days. And for the last 2 weeks, she stopped going school because she was having a bad running nose and a very bad “wet” cough.

As a result of her sickness, she could not sleep very well at night, which of ‘cos affected me.  I had little sleep for a couple of days, to the extend that I thought I was running on backup battery in the day.  With the numerous things that I had to complete in the day, there were no other choice but to put on a strong front at work.  I have a wonderful mom, who helped me for one of the nights after she heard Dawn cried every 15 minutes.  I was totally worn out.  My mom too.

Don’t mention the > $200 medical bills and the paid school feels. I am not “niao” towards my girl, what’s needs to spend have to be spent… but money is just so hard to earn nowadays.

Beside this, there are also work matters. Balls are flying around and I have to be quick in catching the balls.  Not going to blog much about work today..I will keep them in another post.

Something is wrong with my precious PSP.  Though I still can play games on it, it will get hanged or hard to start-up.  Haiz.

Even a fruit can bully me because I forgot about it and it squashed in my bag and stained my precious PSP.

And worst, I fell down and hurt my knees and left wrist 2 days ago.  All because of too much things on my mind. Now both the knee area are swollen and every move hurts.

When will all these end?? Can I have some quietness and peace?  It can be boring at times, but at least it can allow me to have dinner without trying to gasp for air from the same hole at the same time.

Ok, I am ranting. >:[

Boooo The favourite cafe which both dear and me adored has closed down.

We went to try out Bonbon Tea the other day when we finally had the luxury of time. Not very impressed because the Tiramisu was not up to our standard.  The coffee and tea were OK.  Nothing in that place caught our eye which made us want to go there again.

↑ But I do like this cute teapot.

↑ Seldom will get to use sugar cubes nowadays.

↑ Disappointing Tiramisu

On my way home from work today, in that span of 1 hour, I saw :

In a crowded train, a father carrying a pink barbie doll bag on his back, with his girl sitting somewhere in the cabin.

At the traffic junction, a father on a bicycle, with his son at the back in the child seat.  It was raining heavily, and the son was sitting quietly in his seat, and seemed not bothered by the rain drops hitting on his face.

On the pavement, a father carrying his girl in his arms with 1 hand and the other hand holding an umbrella over their heads.

Very common sights, issn’t? But it meant alot to me.

To the father who carried that pink bag, you are awesome.  You carried that pinky stuff on your back boldly because it looks heavy on your daughter’s shoulder.

To the father on the bicycle, you are the man.  You taught your son how to be a man and is a total opposite from worrying mothers who over-protect the kids and deprive them from the simple joy of playing in the rain.

To the father with the umbrella, you are wonderful. Balancing an active child, a small schoolbag and an umbrella sounds like the job of a clown but you did it pretty well, and you didn’t look like a clown at all. 

Apart from these, I saw another sight.  A woman, whom could be the mother or the grandmother (or nanny?!!), exclaimed this to her son / grandson :

“每次带你出来吃饭都下大雨！很麻烦！你不要吃啦!”

[it means : It always rain when I bring you out for dinner. It's so troublesome! You don't eat dinner (next time it rains)!] 

I was in shock. Rain also the poor kid’s fault meh?!!