It’s going to be a year already. A year of seperation. A year of bitterness. A year of growing up. A year of new experience. A year of trying to be happy despite the situation is really not happy. A year of fighting with loniness & hatred. A year of suspressing my betrayed heart.
It’s soon the time to finish the unfinished business.
The letter is out.
And the 泼妇 came to my parents’ house and create a scene.
I do not think that I am unkind to ask for $700 maintenance for both Dawn & me. I didn’t forsake the marriage or the family. Dawn is only a baby, she needs provision till she can support on her own. And that includes all the education fees. If I am unkind, I would have ask more than $700! And the expenses are easily justified because I keep track of them.
I do not understand what’s in the mind of these people who only know the best solution is to argue and shout at people. And I do not understand why these people always want me to think about their situation instead of them thinking about mine. Why are there so many IFs for them when they do not understand that sitting on IFs will only make IFs become real?
“My son has no job, you still ask for $700?”
“If he has no money to pay, you keep sueing him?”
No job go find la! I don’t sit at home waiting for money to drop from sky you know? Even though I wish so. IF one day I have no money to feed Dawn, can I tell hungry Dawn, “Mummy no money leh, you eat air today ok?” Please lo…I will have to look for ANY jobs that can bring in some bread and butter to at least keep my precious warm right? What’s are IFs for me?
Best of all. The mother DEMANDED that I return the angbao money which she gave to Dawn, ok? Can you imagine that? I said FINE! She accused me of spending the money and when I said that I didn’t touch the money and it’s all under Dawn’s account and it’s for her education fees, her face turned into a sudden shock. But because she wants face, she continue to act tough and to prove her point and said “NO NEED (for her education fees), RETURN IT!” Sure I will! Both Dawn & I have our dignity ok? Don’t think that your money is so heavy like the brick that can kill people hor. I smile in my dream when I dreamt that I throw the freaking notes on her face!
And she said she DOES NOT want to see Dawn at all, she very scare each time Dawn’s father brought Dawn back. FINE, I said. You said it, you can be sure I hear your wish.
Throughout all the 泼妇骂街 saga, my dad did not ask them to come in. She WAS furious and rant AT ME that she never ask me to stand outside her house before. Please lor..haven’t you get it? It’s not my house lor, it’s my father’s house. I was chased out of MY HOUSE by your son. And where you were standing was my father’s house. It’s up to my dad whether he wants to invite you in lor..use brain please? And understand the situation first before ranting like a brainless person. Want to fight also must fight with reasoning and grace lor.
I learnt my lesson about words that are spoken during times of rage. I put more thoughts in my words before I say the wrong words again. I learnt that I should not say things which I do not mean it at all. I pay a high price for my mistake.
Having someone who reminded me about my mistake but committing the same mistake as me is just not wise. Since you know how to remind me about my mistake, I take it that you have no fault in that area. Saying things like asking back a baby’s angbao money and claiming not wanting to see her grandchild, I regard it as your TRUE words and not angry words.
I have not and will not ask a single help from anyone from the clan. Mark my words.
Dawn, if one day you ever have a chance to read this, be someone with dignity. Mummy will not allow anyone to see us no up!
