How is it?

I changed my blog skin! Have you notice?

How is it?

Too plain? Better than the last one?

=)

Chase Cars with me….

We’ll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don’t need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don’t quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They’re not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we’re told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that’s bursting into life

Let’s waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we’re told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that’s bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they’re all I can see

I don’t know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Hatred

I probably die as a bitter person.

It’s likely to be my final chapter of my life book.

Yes, I am bitter. Very bitter.

Bitter about everything.

Just got scolded by my parents for reaching home at 9:30pm. For not being there to feed Dawn medicine.

I was called a heartless person.

I was extremely bitter about that idiot who is having his good time now, who bears no responsibility over Dawn. While me here, have to always be restricted to the damn curfew that is so damn early. I am always the earliest to leave for a group dinner. A dinner starts at 7pm and I have to leave by 8:30pm? I wish I have Doraemon’s magic door.

My time are short. I had always make it a point to be home immediately after work so that I can relief mom for the day. Once a week to keep myself sane, is it so much to ask for??

I hate myself for being poor. That I couldn’t afford a car, a maid, a time machine or even a cab fare sometimes.

I hate myself for being restricted. Like a stupid bird who walked itself into a cage and chained itself to the cage.

I hate myself for being too strong at times. That I could not find a man who thinks I am weak and therefore need his care over me.

I hate myself for being weak. That I have to hide inside the stupid bathroom and cry my heart out while the water is splashing on my face.

I hate myself for not being pretty. That I could not sweep the men in the streets up their feet and give me their money.

I hate myself for not being articulate. That I could not convince people of what I am trying to say.

I hate myself for not being smart. That I can win some millions from some genius show.

I hate myself for not being self sufficient. That I have to ask for help of any kind.

I hate myself. I hate my life. I hate what I do not have now. And I hate what I am facing now.

Can all these hates be an energy generator?

I want to be self sufficient. I do not want to rely on people. Even the greatest person who said that you can always rely on will one day said that you are a heartless being.

And I simply hate it. I felt betrayed. I felt I am an idiot.

A damn idiot.

My new gadget!

I bought my new mobile! It’s a Nokia 6110 Navigator.

Talking about this phone, I was quite upset by the product knowledge of M1 staff of bugis branch.

Remember the previous post where I mentioned that I was told there were no ways to back up my smses? Well, it is POSSIBLE for Nokia phones. Just by using the Nokia PC Suite, it is POSSIBLE to back up the smses from the Nokia phone. The M1 counter staff told me a FIRM NO and that it is impossible even to use the Nokia Suite.

Another thing was, while I was at that branch, I asked TWO M1 staff whether this 6110 Navigator has WIFI and I can tap on the free wireless@SG. Both of them told me YES. When I was at M1 Paragon, the staff there told me this phone doesn’t come with an in-built WIFI. Can you imagine my shock? I can excuse them from not knowing that smses can be backed up as they might not be Nokia users, but how can they not know the new mobile phones features? And they couldn’t even bothered to check the specifications?!

Anyway, I bought the phone. I was rather disappointed by this phone too.. It hung 3 times within 4 days. And I realised I have to be slow in pressing the buttons especially when switching applications. Haiz…

And the camera seems worst than my previous 6230i 1.3 mega pixa camera…

The navigator doesn’t seem to pick up my present location. It kept stating “Getting position”. I think I will remain lost for half a day if I depend on this navigator for directions. Duh. (Or anyone can help me with my settings?Email me at peachie270@gmail.com)

Oh well..but it’s good to have a new phone..as a birthday present for myself. =)

Birthday Celebrations

On 10 Aug, Fan, Aloy, Jimmy & Bernard gave me a treat at the japanese restaurant at Tanglin Shopping Centre (I can’t remember what’s the name of the restaurant!). We sat in their japanese-style private room, it was what I wanted to try out all along. It’s nice and cosy. The food were nice, especially the Stew Pork Belly. Aloy said he doesn’t take fatty meat but ended up took 2 of those meat!

We went for a drink after the dinner. My mom had given me a “time-off” and I could go home after 12am for once. Dar came and join us for drink after his work. Aiya, ended up a little high after all the beer games and Fan had to accompany me home. That’s sweet of him. If I have girl-friends who are of his age, I think I will recommend them to him. Hehe

Birthday for Dar

A long overdued post…

Fan & I went to this Vibe restaurant (at claymore hotel) to “celebrate” Dar’s birthday. The rest of the gang were either not able to come or out of town. I call it a “celebration” because it was just a normal dinner get-together. No big parties of cos.

It was a good buffet, with meat and lots of meat! The starters were good too. I was overwhelmed with the high chocolate fondue. Was very tempted to start with the fondue as my starters.

(It’s only 1 fondue, the other one was a mirror reflection)

The meat was good. The chef had to walk around the restaurant to serve us with the meat. He must be very tired after every day of work, so much walking to do.

We had red wine , or rather Fan & Dar had the wine. I couldn’t finish even half of the glass of red wine that was poured for me. Such a waste.

And dessert time! They had the dessert served on small individual plates. Nice!

(A display of all the desserts)

(Cheese cake and I had taken a mouth-full)

(Nice tiramisu)

And after dinner I had to go home for Dawn..too bad, no night drinks. Time is so short for me…

A Mother’s Love

I got a Birthday card from a Mothers’ club, inside it was written :

A Mother’s love is so strong,
it begins before her child is born,
and it lasts for a lifetime long,
for the child she’s so fond.

On this day,
We celebrate your birth,
for there’s none
like a mother’s love!

Nice one!